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Friday, July 28, 2006

today started out PERFECT.

i woke up at 5.07am, which is WAY too early, just because i had forgotten to pee before i went to bed and therefore my bladder was full.

i am very disturbed.

i like Paris Hilton's song.

Stars Are Blind.

Should I just cut off my ears now? Clearly I have lost all ability to distinguish between music and random noise.

hur hur.

In my defense, however, I didn't know it was her song. Until today. Damn it. She didn't sound like her.

hur hur.

my hotmail account got hacked into. AGAIN.

this is getting to be VERY annoying. why i didn't remove that account completely, i don't know.

i'm kicking myself in the ass at this very moment.

if i ever find the bastard who did it, i'll burn him alive. okay, i probably won't. but i'd think about it.

anyways, Wednesday was our soccer match which yes i did score AGAIN, not to disappoint all you fans out there. However i was caught f-ing myself alot of tyme during the game.

cursing and swearing, i was eventually called up by the referee. it was like an 'internal call' and it could only be ONE person.

Nordin.

"Heider, could you come over?"

I walked over and the next 15 minutes was dedicated to a lecture on how I should be more confident and not be so fearful and that I was the ONLY player he'd ever met who was so scared of others.

i think many of those who know me would have laughed at that. i'm not scared of people. i'm only scared of my mom and people who have the ability to beat me up. hur hur hur.

i dont think that my unwillingness to be caught in conflicts should be misconstrued as fear. conflicts waste my time and i have enough drama in my life. but NO, okay. Nordin says i'm scared therefore i MUST be.

now, i'm the sort of person who doesn't like to waste time correcting people's mistakes. i will point it out once and if you say i'm wrong, i will not point it out again. unless, of course, i was feeling particularly argumentative that day. hur hur. i used to argue my case until i won but i've gotten older and being headstrong is just too annoying.

ANYWAY.

the higher ups noticed the mistake and told him off. unfortunately, i crossed his path while he was looking for someone to blame. so there you go. it was my fault even though i pointed it out to her twice. in fact, i spent quite some time telling him that it'd confuse people. but no, it was my fault because i should have pushed for my case.

like i have nothing else better to do with my time.

i told him that it's not that i was fearful but i didn't want to overstep my boundaries. i know my place in the team and i'm not going to sidestep others. but apparently i SHOULD. and I HAVE TO. Or i will forever be disadvantaged. I think he cursed me a little there.

hur hur.

i didn't like that he kept comparing me to the 'Swensons, Geralds, Muhaimins' he's worked with before. i'm not them and the only time you should ever compare me to someone else is if you're going to tell me that i'm prettier than them. ok thats gay.

hur hur.

in any case, i've learned the hard way that one should never ever overstep one's boundaries in the team. it's the quickest way to the death of your place

and this is also why everyone likes me and hates him.

hur hur hur hur.

okay, everyone tolerates me.

6:32 PM
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