maybe if i stare at a map hard enough?

people might not know this but i'm a planner. i like to have things organized with a system and i am constantly planning, planning, planning in my head. of course i am much too lazy to put any of these plans on paper. hur hur. people say people who plan are no fun, that they aren't spontaneous.

i beg to differ.

i can break into a jig while talking to you. if that ain't spontaneous, i don't know what is. okay, maybe insanity is a factor here, but that's a whole other issue. so yeah, spontaneous. and i am fun! I am great fun!

I think.

so anyway, yes. planning.

quarterway through my prison (jc. ha ha ha.) term, i planned what i wanted to do after i graduate. i thought it was a FABULOUS plan.

the problem is, i can't remember what it is.

I'm still trying to decide what I want to do after I graduate. Do I want to take a break? Do I want to continue studying? Do I want to work immediately?

I've forgotten all the answers I had.

damn it.

I feel like I should take a break. I'm old and I am tired. I've been studying for 16 years and when I wasn't studying, I was working.

hur hur.

At this point, I would like to say, I know what you're thinking. 16 years?! And the result is...THAT?

Yes. Who said going to school will make you smarter? It doesn't!

hur hur.

So anyway, I'm thinking of taking 1 or 2 months of break but my mom insists that I find a job right after I graduate.

I think she wants me to start supporting myself so she can get rid of me. I am wise to her plans!

hur hur.

maybe it's not such a bad idea to work immediately. but it's not a bad idea to take a break and visit my friends overseas either. One of them *ahemrickyahem* gave me a dressing down for feeding him LIESSSS about visiting him. hur hur hur. I didn't lie! I said I'll go when I've saved enough money. Which I haven't. hur hur.

I think I need a sugar daddy.

hur hur.

or maybe if i stare at the atlas long enough, i'll be able to imagine being in Australia. hur hur.

i think i should just go to bed.

tsk.