this is how i will die

from sleep deprivation.

my eyes are burning and my body's tired but WHY am i not ASLEEP?i have 4.5 hours of Crazy Ass Hair Men later. I NEED SLEEP.on the other hand, i could skip the lecture and school.No!It's only been two weeks. Have some self-restraint, Heider! you know, sometimes i wonder what people must think of me when they read this blog. Do they think that I'm a nutjob? Because honestly, they wouldn't be wrong.Or do they think, Oh you know, it's the Internet, people are never what they seem.That IS true. I think I am worse in real life. Real life's all about spontaneity. Meaning I don't have the luxury of thinking before speaking.Okay, I do. I just choose not to. It's just too hard.Well this is going nowhere. WHY haven't I bored myself to sleep already?Usually when I have trouble sleeping, I often focus on something marginally happy going on in my life and I rid of all the bad bad thoughts in my head and I fall asleep.But nothing (a few) is going right in my life currently, everything (some) is going to hell and I have absolutely NO (this is true) happy thoughts left in me.

Oh wait. There's Paris Hilton. Oh and Slurpee. Oh maybe Paris Hilton drinking a Slurpee.Oh maybe Paris Hilton feeding me a Slurpee.Okay. Time for bed!